How is it June already? Actually, how is it mid-June already? How are we half-way through an entire year? How has it been 6 months? What have I gotten done?
At this mid-way point in the year, I wanted to step back and re-visit what I had set out to accomplish–or at least focus on–so many months ago. Sharing this is quite personal but what better motivator than public shaming?!
RCT: He may not agree with it (joking!), but my husband and specifically our relationship, is a big focus for me this year. Relationships always need constant attention and effort, and throwing a set of trolls into the mix can make it that much more difficult. Children can stretch and strain any relationship. Together we’re focusing on communication–what works, what doesn’t, how we’re feeling, when we need a break–and making sure that we take time out from the chaos for just the two of us. Stealing moments when we can.
T+I: My kids will always be my priority and I’ll venture to guess, that I’ll constantly have some type of focus or goal around them (or for them). This year has been particularly tough, in adding another child to the mix and the general highs and lows that come with two kids under the age of three. There are times when I need to remind myself that the time I have with them is precious and that I need to be present for them–to help them growth and learn. And, to learn about them. There are other times when all I want is a glass of wine, silence and to check Instagram.
HOME: I love my home but it’s time for something new. We’re focusing on finishing our punch list– updates that we’ve been planning (and DIYing) since we bought the house. We’re up in the air bit in terms of when we’ll put it on the market (or where we’ll go), and until then, we’ll simply enjoy our home and the enhancements we’ve worked so hard on. We’ll enjoy the last memories in our first home.
ME: I want to be a better friend. I want to make time for my friends and family. To make an effort both in time and physically getting together and to build relationships around me. I also need to focus on myself a bit. Stress is constant but within my home and outside it, I need to find ways to step back and look at the bigger picture. To take care of myself physically, to strive for all around health. Finally, I want to acknowledge how important work is to me. I am a worker. It’s in my genes. I’m not referring just to my “corporate” job, but the work I do outside my 9-5. My day job has been lackluster the last year and while I am trying to stay positive and drive opportunities for myself, I may be at a cross roads and that is hard to admit. Outside that job, I continue to volunteer for the local education association. I want to continue to do meaningful and engaging work, whatever or wherever it is.
104-West: I love my blog. It’s nothing fancy and I admit, the content is crappy at best. But it’s mine. It’s my outlet. This year I want to show more. To post what has been happening in my life, things and topics that are important to me. I strive for perfection in my posts and I simply need to get away from that. It holds me back from really sharing. I know my life isn’t perfect, so why try to have it look like it is? Sharing (and venting) is why I blog. And that is what I need to remember. Even though it’s nothing special, my blog has given me one of the best gifts in the last few years–a way to connect, to learn from others and to forge friendships that would not have existed otherwise. It’s hard for me to reach out from behind the screen, but I’ve tried this year and in all times, am so glad that I have.
M: Very much tied to want to do meaningful work, I want to improve as a (mom-tographer?) photographer. Pictures. Shots. Captured moments. It’s all I think about. Literally. In order to do this, I need to ask for more help, ask for more clients (who would refuse free pics?!), show more of my work and simply, do more. I’ll need to hustle to make it my reality. Yes, it will require more of my time. Time that I don’t have. But if I truly want this, I’ll find a way.
All in all? Eh.
I’m glad to resurrect these and bring focus back to those that need a bit more.
In the spirit of improving upon one of my ‘resolutions’ in the back-half of 2013 (hint: blogging in real-time), here’s a post that wasn’t….what we did LAST NYE: